This year, like many people across the country, Thanksgiving will be celebrated differently. In years past I have gathered with friends at a restaurant. However, this year I will be celebrating it by staying home until my grandpa and I go out to dinner. Looking back on this year my heart fills with thankfulness. I am thankful for my Grandpa, my dog, Duke, family, and friends.
I am also thankful for my health. I finally got into a clinic where I can get my health needs met. I feel blessed to be able to have access to healthcare when years ago I thought I would never have that access.
I am thankful for my team members who work behind the scenes who help with my business. Without your help I I would not have made it this far. Thank you!
Most importantly thank you to my readers, or as I like to call you, my butterflies. No matter what platform you follow me on it means the world to me that you check out my content. Thank you for your love and support.
I hope each and everyone of you have a healthy and safe Thanksgiving.
Have you ever felt like you were going to be eaten by lions? I sure have! Yet, with faith I overcame this fear.
You see, I do not have health insurance and for the past four years I have not seen a doctor. For over the last month I had been calling the low-income clinic trying to reach their social worker to see if I would qualify for their low-income sliding scale program. After telling the social worker my situation I was granted the “free” scale. From there she led me to my nurse’s office where I had to fill out my medical history.
As I waited for my name to be called, I prayed a prayer of thanksgiving for meeting my needs and a prayer for courage since going to the doctors were like being thrown into the lion’s den. The reason I was so nervous was because of the sad reality of seeing my mother passed away right in front of me at age 17, and on top of that having quite a few bad experiences with medical professionals when I was a teenager.
As I sat there waiting for my name to be called my palms were sweating, and my heart was racing as the nurse led me from the scale into the exam room. When I finally perch myself on the exam table, I felt like I was in a den of lions ready to be eaten. Trying to calm myself I thought about a Bible study I did a few weeks back about Daniel and the lions. I knew I had to be like Daniel and have faith. The nurse’s assistant asked me the usual round of questions, like if I was in pain, when my last time I saw the doctor, what medicines I was taking, etc.
Then she took my blood pressure, which was fine, however she had to take my pulse twice. My pulse was high at 129. As I sat there waiting on the nurse, I continued to feel like I was going to panic. I started to do my breathing exercises. Breathe in and then slowly out through your mouth I told myself. Then the holy spirit came to me and reminded me of verse John 14:27, “Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.”
Then the nurse came in and we talked. She could tell that I was really scared. She gave me a chance to calm down and get all my anxiety out before she did a basic exam. She listened to my heart, lungs, and stomach. She also looked at my mouth, nose, ears, and eye. (By the way, she knew what Nystagmus was. 😊). Then she looked at my legs and ankles. Afterwards, we came up with a treatment plan.
I am now on a short round of medicines for a rash. It should be cleared up in a few weeks. I also got a referral for mental health for depression and anxiety. Remember it is okay to reach out for help.
I also need to follow up with the eye doctor and dentist at the clinic. When I walked out of the clinic, I felt good that I looked fear straight in the face!
October was another month that was filled with ups and downs. I showed Courage more than once. My last Orthodontist appointment was on 11-5-2020, I was really concerned about needing surgery. I am happy to report that the pain is gone, praise Jesus, and that surgery is not needed. Have you ever felt like you were going up against a giant? I felt like I was. I have not seen a doctor in over four years, and I knew that it was time to get back into healthy habits. That meant obtaining courage and making an appointment. It took over five times to get a hold of the social worker to be able to tell my story. I finally got a hold of her and got my appointment set.
Part of learning self-control is learning to trust Jesus. I have battled anxiety and depression most of my life. Since I made my doctor appointment it was hard to push the thoughts of going to the upcoming appointment aside. I have a hard time trusting doctors and nurses because I lost my mother, from a heart attack, at the age of sixteen. I have a huge fear of dying like my mother. However, I knew to better my health I had no choice, but to go to my appointment in November. God has given me another crash course in anger management and the ability to let things go. On the way to my last orthodontist appointment I texted a “friend,” and she started cussing me out pointing out things that were wrong in my life. Like the fact that I have a low income, no insurance and the fact that because of my visual impairment she never thinks that I will make something of myself. I tried to stand up for myself explaining that in Jeremiah 29:11 says, “For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. In those days when you pray, I will listen.” She continued to say hurtful things. I continued to point to the Lord by saying that I walk in God’s grace every day. In 2 Corinthians 9-11 says, “My gracious favor is all you need. My power works best in your weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weakness, so that the power of Christ my work through me. Since I know it is all for Christ’s good, I am quite content with my weakness and with insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.” Even though I continued to point to the cross she continued to argue. I ended up just ending the fight. I felt angry and hurt. The next day my friend came back to me and did not show any remorse. I had a hard time giving it over to the lord. Those words she spoke really hurt. I continue to ask for God’s grace and guidance on this matter.
When it comes to joy, I have felt joyful over the fact that I have been working with a friend who shares with me the hard work of running a business. She encourages me during each meeting. It brings me great gladness the goals that I have achieved.
How was October for you? Tell me in the comments below.
I was tagged by Nicola who runs the blog, Parenting in Pain to do the Hallotober Tag. Here are the rules for the tag:
The post rules are
Thank the person who tagged you and link to their post.
Put the rules are the beginning or after the introduction.
Answer the 13 questions.
Tag 13 people to do the tag.
Delete Question, add a new question of your own.
With the rules out of the way let’s get started. Thank you, Nicola for tagging me to do this tag.
Here are her questions:
What’s your favorite thing about October? The colors.
Are you a big celebrator of Halloween? I am not, but blind as a bat girl is. Blind as a bat girl is a girl who fights against blindness and helps promote eye health. She only comes out during Halloween since she is part bat.
What’s your favorite horror movie? I don’t watch horror movies.
Would you rather a cozy night in watching horrors or a big night out in a costume? Blind as a bat girl loves to go out trick or treating.
Which has been your most favorite costume to date? As a kid I loved dressing up as Underdog.
Bobbing for apples or pin the hat on the witch? Pin the hat on the witch.
How do you celebrate Halloween? Blind as a bat girl always stops by my house to tell others how to help save their eye sight. I love to hang out with her. Tonight I am also having a pizza party with a friend.
What’s your least favorite horror? I don’t watch horror movies.
Do you have a favorite trick or treating memory? As a kid I loved dressing up as a doctor, ninja and Underdog. When I was little I would go trick or treating around my grandparent’s neighborhood. Also, attending the Halloween fair when my Step Dad was a chef at a nursing home was fun.
What’s your favorite thing about Halloween? Seeing the children
have fun and get candy.
Scary costume or Silly costume? I would prefer a silly costume over a scary one.
What’s your favorite Halloween candy? Reese’s peanut butter cup.
What costume did you really want as a kid, but never got? My mom always got me a Halloween costume I asked for.
Kayaking for disabled people may seem like a strange sport, but it can be very beneficial to your health.
Kayaking is very good exercise that has little or no impact on the body and you can learn many new skills while enjoying the great outdoors. If you are looking for a new experience, then kayaking, although it has certain challenges – may just be for you.
Disability awareness has been increasing steadily. Many organizations have started to sponsor recreational activities for disabled groups so they can enjoy the great outdoors without worrying about their ability to operate equipment. This is great news for many disabled people who want to enjoy the great outdoors as much as possible. Kayaking is an activity which is no appealing to many disabled people, due to the advances it is now possible to do so in a safe and enjoyable environment.
Kayaking for disabled people is popular in Britain, the United States, Europe and New Zealand. Some of these countries have even created a system whereby groups of disabled people go on regular kayaking trips – which makes the whole experience much more enjoyable all round. This has proven to be a very effective way of introducing disabled people to kayaking, as well as being a fun activity for all. Disabled people are able to enjoy the great outdoors in their own special way.
The activity allows many disabled people to enjoy some of the great outdoors without having to worry about their ability to manoeuvre the kayaking equipment. This is important if you have any kind of impairment that makes it difficult to use simple wheelchairs or other equipment. It is certainly a sport / activity which allows disabled people to have some fun, and some of the best experiences involve kayaking in waters that can’t be accessed by cars. Disabled groups often set up campsites around lakes and rivers, enabling people with mobility issues to enjoy the great outdoors in ways they never could before.
Kayaking for disabled people provides people with physical fitness benefits as well. Kayaking can be a great way of exercising and it helps build muscle tone. Kayaking is a great way to burn calories and get in shape without having to run all over town or go to the gym. Kayaking also helps build strength, flexibility and balance, as you are required to keep your body steady in order to move the kayaks.
Kayaking is a pretty fantastic activity for anyone with mobility issues, and it offers many benefits for all levels of ability. Whether you want to go camping, go trekking, go boating, go mountain biking, or just enjoy some time in nature, kayaking can be a great adventure for everyoneespecially those who want to experience a longer period of time in the water.
Kayaking can be a great way to improve your abilities, especially if you already use special equipment. such as walking sticks or walkers. Kayaking for offers you a great way to experience a challenging sport that can help improve your fitness and allow you to experience the great outdoors.
Its a wonderful sport, and it also provides many benefits for those who have physical impairment problems. It is a great sport for many who love the outdoors and have been able to experience it on a smaller scale before.
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September was a remarkably interesting month for me. When it came to courage, I had to rise to the challenge more than once. I had my third orthodontist appointment, and luckily enough my pain from my tooth was improving, so my orthodontist had me continue to wear my retainers full time for four more weeks. We are hoping that this will improve the pain even more. Time will tell.
We were hit by hurricane Sally and it left Pensacola in a mess. The wind howled like a dog as it passed through Pensacola. I tried to remember that God is always with me even in weather like that. During the storm, the holy spirit reminded me of Mark 4:39-41, “He got up, rebuked the wind and said to the waves, “Quiet! Be still!” Then the wind died down and it was completely calm. He said to his disciples, “Why are you so afraid? Do you still have no faith?” They were terrified and asked each other, “Who is this? Even the wind and the waves obey him!” Now, I’m not saying that the hurricane was magically going to stop, but to have faith in every situation. After the storm I was without power for two days and I was without internet for over a week. I really had to work on patience because I had a limited data plan. I was behind in my work; however, I am getting caught up.
When it comes to joy, I found that after the storm just connecting to friends and loved ones really helped me get through being grumpy because it was so hot without the air conditioner. Once I got back onto the internet, I felt joy because I did not have to worry about using my data. I am so thankful that my family and friends are okay from the storm.
How was September for you? Let me know in the comments below.
On September 16, 2020, Hurricane Sally hit Pensacola, Florida. Most of the people in the community were not prepared because we were told that we were only going to get the outskirts of the storm. However, Sally had other plans.
The storm carried high winds and lots of rain. Downtown Pensacola and some other areas were flooded, and many houses were ruined. Many trees were knocked down. As for my house. We were lucky. We only had one tree that came down by the side of the house, however a few more inches and it would have been in my bedroom. Other than that, the front and backyard were a mess. It’s going to take a while to get the yard cleaned up, but it can be done.
We were without power for almost two days. I was so happy when the power came back on. It felt so good to hear the air conditioner come on again.
As far as my business, due to my limited phone plan I was unable to post regularly. ☹
Please have patience with me as I get back on my feet and answer posts, update videos and more.
I am so thankful that my family and friends are fine and well. I am praying for my city and those effected by the storm.