“Honor your father and mother. Then you will live a long, full life in the land the Lord your God is giving you.”- Exodus 20:12
God commands children to honor their father and mother- for me that also means honoring those who have stepped in to take her place. My mother died, from a heart attack, when I was just sixteen. Mother’s Day is a day to sit back and reflect on the memories that I had with my mother. My mother and I enjoyed fishing, cooking together, playing video games, and just spending time together. She taught me many lessons like being thankful for what we had, to work hard when I was attending school, and that God would take care of me.
One of the last lessons she taught me was that she made a mistake raising me to be fearful. We were at Fort Pickens and we were going down some stone steps that did not have any handrails. I was worried about falling and I did not want to go down. My grandma was also worried about me falling. My mother wanted me to focus on looking out while stepping down instead of watching my feet. She knew that I needed experience with different textures due to my visual impairment. I made it down the stairs. That night my mother and I talked about the day. She told me something along the lines of, “Amanda, I am sorry that I raised you to be fearful. I shouldn’t have done that. I want to help you to be more confident.” After this conversation she started to work on that, however in February she died.
One of the last things I said to my mother before she died was “I love you.” Those words are words I cherish in my heart.
After she died my grandparents took over my care. My grandparents said they would provide everything they could for me as long as they are able. Both my grandparents have kept their promise.
Even though my grandma is no longer here she taught me many lessons. One of those lessons is not to let fear and worry consume me. My grandma worried about everything. Her health, the dog, etc. Now I am trying to live worry free.
So this mother’s day I will be thinking about the women who have helped me become the woman I am today.