January seemed to pass by so quickly. I am taking life one day at a time. This month I decided to take life by its horns and really attack my depression and anxiety. One way I did this was to go through my room and I decided to donate some items to people in need.
I also had two coaching sessions with Karen, who runs the company Dream Big Coaching. She helped me realize that in order to live life I need to build my mental resilience. I feel that I have a long way to get back to the person I once was. Happy and confident. I will get there one day. To start the process, I contacted my local DMV to find out why employers have not been taking my state ID. The good news is that the DMV responded that employers must legally take it for Identification purposes. I am waiting to hear back from the DMV about getting a letter to attach to my employment applications.
When it came to peace, I finally have come to face my fears of seeking medical care. This month I had a blood test. I thought that I was going to pass out like I did the last time, however this time it went on without a hitch. I hardly felt the needle go in at all. I just thought about my friends and my business endeavors while I got the test done.
Goodness is all around me. My editor and I are finished with the first round of edits. I am extremely excited about getting my book out to the public.
My friend and I have just finished the book of Esther. I really enjoyed this Bible study because this book taught me that women can be strong and brave even when they do not want to speak up.
My friend reminded me of God’s goodness when I went to speak to her about my eye condition. That day I was feeling discouraged because I felt like I was missing out on life due to my Nystagmus. She pointed out my bible verse from John 33:16, “I have told you these things so that in me you may have peace. You will have suffering in this world. Be courageous! I have conquered the world.” She was right, God may have created me to have Nystagmus, but he goes with me wherever I go. In fact, that night while I was thinking about this verse the Holy Spirit brought to my mind verse Psalm 139,14, “I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful. I know that full well.” When I thought about that verse I was filled with peace. My God made my disability especially for me. For his purpose. That is something to smile about.
I received a beautiful card from one of my customers. It was a joy to read her kind words and to unpack some stickers that she included in her card.