This was a post I didn’t want to write. It’s actually been really emotionally painful. Everything was going fine until the morning of November 16th. I woke up, I was going to do work on my computer, plugged in my external hard drive and it wasn’t working. I tried getting my files on my grandpa’s computer; the same thing happened. I called my friend in a panic; she told me to get an extra cord and maybe it was that. On Sunday I went to Best Buy and the tech checked my hard drive. He said it was the cord. I ordered a new cord off of Amazon, and I waited almost a week for it to come in. Thursday night I said a prayer and plugged it in. Nothing changed. The following week my grandpa took me to a computer shop to see if it could be fixed. Sadly, the hard drive died without warning. I lost all my files. Now I am trying to get my blog and everything else I had back in order. I only had a few backups on some things, but not everything.
Then the day before Thanksgiving, I woke up very early in the morning. I couldn’t go back to sleep. I suddenly got very angry over my situation. Without thinking I threw my phone on the floor. I cracked the screen. I have to pay for the damage and it is going to be expensive.
I know that this all isn’t the greatest news in the world, however there are some movement, patience and positivity in all this.
When it comes to movement, I know that I have a slight chance of getting my files back. I plan of sending my drive to a friend to see if he can fix it. In the mean time I am going to work with my editor on the things she does have while I am working on new exciting content. The writing and disability community has been amazing. People have reminded me to keep positive and to keep going. I know that I can get my phone fixed. It may take some time to get an appointment, but I can get it repaired. I have definitely learned not to let anger get a hold of me.
When it comes to patience, I am learning to give myself time to get caught up on the work I can. It’s going to take some time and this is okay. Any movement and progress is better than nothing.
Lastly, I had to learn to stay positive in all this. I can’t let this setback hold me back. I have a great support team and I’ll make it through.
How was your month? What are your goals for December? Tell me in the comments below.